Archive for September, 2012

Come on.say it. Say wow.

Posted in Uncategorized on September 28, 2012 by enybodyhome

Tadi malem liat mobil lucu yang nomor platnya B something-something ENY.
I proudly told my husband pointing out to the car.
Terus he said something yang tampaknya lagi in banget sekarang.”Terus gue mesti bilang wow gitu?”
And i tonelessly replied him,”Yes you must!Come on. Say it.Say wow.”
Dan dengan pelan diapun bilang “Wow…”

Hahahaha i smiled widely. Akhirnya bisa ngebales kalimat yang luar biasa nyebelin itu. Hihihi

Dear God, im begging you

Posted in Uncategorized on September 11, 2012 by enybodyhome

Dear God..
This pray goes to all those poor children out there
Who starve themselves out there in Africa
Whose parents are dead out in the wars
Who have to work hard to be able to live. Selling newspapers, becoming street vendors and quitting their school
Who were born incomplete and un-capable to relate to the world
Whose the stupid parents abort them or throw them until they die in the garbage
Who have parents but were neglected
Who have parents but stupidly rent them to those beggars and give them sleeping pills
Dear God, please ease their life. Give them happiness children like them should have
Because what else you create them to this world but for happiness
If they cant have it, please have mercy on them..

Ini ditulis dengan hati luar biasa perih ngelihat pengemis di jembatan semanggi dengan satu bayi dan satu anak perempuan tergeletak lemas. Entah mereka anak siapa. Entah mereka diberi apa. Mudahkan hidup mereka, Tuhan…

Worst in the world

Posted in a simple hello, My Precious one on September 6, 2012 by enybodyhome

Pagi ini gue nangis. Ampe sesenggukan. The first that kind of cry i ve made in this year. Gara2nya maybe sepele, maybe not. I just feel like a fail mother. Not fail because my daughters turn into some kind of monsters criminal or stuff. But because i feel like i can not make them loving me…

Belakangan ini, lolop sama ila selalu berebutan ayahnya. Even in bed time, they are fighting on their sleeping side. All of them want to be in daddy’side of bed. Noone wants to be in mommy’side..
I realize children are sincere and innocent. And their daddy is a great dad. It is no wonder both love him so much and always want to be with him
And it hurts me. I feel like a fail person, i cant make my own daughters love me. I feel like im a monster that none of them want to be with me. And as a mother, that kind of feeling is the worst and saddest thing in the world
I realize parenting is not a competition. Its not about who wins the more love between daddy and mommy. Its about taking care and loving each other endlessly and without hoping anything in return. And i also realize that true love is still loving even though the ones you love are ignoring you
I realize it all. Im loving my daughters wholeheartedly, and expect nothing in return.
But my friend, seeing their daddy is showered by their love while i am being here as the outcast, leaves a very sad feeling inside here..

Oh well, whatever it is, i know i love them so much and hopefully this thing is only the effect of my mad PMS

Semoga di surga

Posted in Uncategorized on September 3, 2012 by enybodyhome

Tiba – tiba kepikiran. Kalau bener surga dan neraka ada. Orang – orang yang punya ketidakmampuan (cacat) baik fisik atau mental, nanti masuk surga gak ya..
Kayaknya kasihan amat, kalau sudah di dunia mereka menderita, terus di akhirat nanti mereka masuk neraka :((

Semoga tempat mereka adalah di surga. Amiiin

Ke Tempat Kalo Ada

Posted in My Precious one with tags , , , on September 1, 2012 by enybodyhome

Hari ini lolop mutung seharian. Kerjanya cemberut aja, sampe ga mau makan siang dan malem. Eniwei, pas tadi jam 7an emaknya bikin sereal honey stars nestle buat ngemil, dia minta. And alhamdulillah doyan banget and minta disuapin mulu.
Demi menambah semangat biar dia makannya banyak, emaknya pun nyanyi bintang kecil sembari nyuapin, dan sembari nari juga. Nope, bukan tipe tari moderen ala girlband korea, tapi tarian panggung 17an ala tahun 90an. Maklum, emaknya jaman esde tuh langganan joget di panggung 17an tiap taon di kampung.
Kakak ila yang emang demen nyanyi terus bilang, “Ibu, ibu diem aja. Ila aja yang nyanyi, ibu joget aja”.
Okay, berati gaya joget Emaknya keren, tapi suaranya ancur…
Terus Ila pun mulai nyanyi. Begini nyanyinya …

Bintang kecil, di langit yang biru. Amat banyak, menghias angkasa. Aku ingin, terbang dan melari.
Jauh tinggi, ke tempat KALO ADA ….

Wkkkkk emaknya dalam hati ngakak. Iya sih bener, baru bisa terbang tinggi ke tempat bintang, KALO tempatnya memang ADA ….